Happy birthday 'myself'

Thanks for all the wishes, gift and cake.

Finally finished 24 successful years.

tribute to mavelinadu

I found this while looking for a mail today hehehe nostalgic i received this afetr i shutdown one of my popular site in the year 2005...half of its in malayalam, the reaction of all my mods and co-admins...Im sorry for what happend that time i was helpless. pavithra_k_menon is a guy named latheesh suck a cockster his fantasy was to talk to people online using girl name. GOSH!

jamal ikka:
pavithra_k_menon: njan ethy
hari:
hari: vannalllo vanamala
hari: appole arum pokaruth
hari: njna itha vannu
hari: vishaklkunnu
pavithra_k_menon: odeda kari
hari: podi avidunnu
hari: ninne njan ottikkum
pavithra_k_menon: hihihi... poda karee... nee njottum
hari: ketto ivide arum mindilla
hari: njan njottula kanichu tharqam
pavithra_k_menon: namukku sitente matter talkaam
hari: tharam
hari: koppu
pavithra_k_menon: ayyo... kaanendaaa..
hari: ellarum valiya aluakl
hari: arum mindilla
hari: mindiyal kozhappama
pavithra_k_menon: athe... head weight aanu
hari: ya
hari: koppu
pavithra_k_menon: ikkaaaa
pavithra_k_menon:
pavithra_k_menon:

pavithra_k_menon: kari moorkkaa... nirtheda
pavithra_k_menon: valla paambu kalikkum po
pavithra_k_menon:
hari: podi\
hari: nee pavakka vilkkan poo
pavithra_k_menon: pavakkayude akathu oru kari moorkkan
hari: ha ha
hari: ninte adutho
hari: podi pavkka
pavithra_k_menon: oru karim korangu paavakka eduthu kondu poyi
hari: ha ha ha
hari: ninne edukkan njan vannilla
pavithra_k_menon: appol karim korangu aaraanennu manassilaayi
pavithra_k_menon: nee thanne aanu
chiba: ivalu eppolaa vanneee
pavithra_k_menon: njan vannittu 23 years aayi
pavithra_k_menon: hihihi
hari: appole ninne edukkan njna varam
hari: mathya
chiba: 23 years oooo
pavithra_k_menon: oh santhosham
pavithra_k_menon: athe...
chiba: arinjillaaa
chiba:
pavithra_k_menon: ayye arinjille chiba chettaa
pavithra_k_menon: mmm... serious aayirikku... nammude maveli chathathu
arinjille?
chiba: arinju
chiba: avan konnathallee
pavithra_k_menon: enthu cheyyaam.... avan kochu kutti alle? angu kshamikku
chettaa
chiba: avane kandirunnel kshamikkarunnu
chiba: monthel 2 ennam koduthathinu sesham
pavithra_k_menon: singaporeilekku vilikku
hari: ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
chiba: singapore lekku pokaallo
chiba: ennathinaa vilikkunnathu
pavithra_k_menon: avan bhayankara thadiyanaa... chiba chettante double untu
avan
chiba: ethayaalum naattil pokuvaa, singapore vazhi route mattanam ennalle
ullu
chiba: athonnu saramillaa
chiba: thadi yil kaaryam illaa
pavithra_k_menon: pinne gymilum avan pokunnuntu... chanthupottil oru songil
dileep gymil pokunnille? athupole... hihihi
chiba: anaye simham adichu idum
pavithra_k_menon: oooo...
pavithra_k_menon: enthoru simham...
chiba: athu pole avane adichidum
pavithra_k_menon: ente jamal ikkaye karayichappol samadhanam aayallo
pavithra_k_menon: paavam ikka
pavithra_k_menon: orupaadu karanju
pavithra_k_menon: chiba chettan kelkkunnundo?
chiba: unduu
pavithra_k_menon: enthinaa aa message ikkene kaanichathu... nammude ikkene
namukku ariyaallo....
chiba: hmmm
chiba: ennalum kinnan nte swabhavam ellarum ariyanam
pavithra_k_menon: athupole chiba chettane aarenkilum kuttam paranjalum
njangal viswasikkillaa
chiba: ene paranjottee
chiba: enikku pullu vilaa
chiba:
pavithra_k_menon: nammal mods ellaam oru family pole... alla... family
members aayirunnallo
chiba: aayirunnu
chiba: pakshe ninte kinnan alle ellam kalanjathu???
pavithra_k_menon: aa kinnante swabhavam angane aayathu avante age athaanu...
members/ modsinte feelings/ hurts chinthikkaanulla prayam avanillaa
pavithra_k_menon: athhaa
chiba: aaha
pavithra_k_menon: ikkayodu chodikku sathyam alle ennu
pavithra_k_menon: oru aniyante vivaram illayma aayi kandu avanodu kshamikku
chettaa
chiba: hmmm
pavithra_k_menon: pakshe avan ennodu paranjathu, credit card company case
file cheythu ennaa
americansundari: kinnan onnu oversmart ayatha chitti
americansundari:
pavithra_k_menon: chundeli chechi undaayirunno ivite?
chiba: chundeli njangalude aalaa
americansundari: yes
pavithra_k_menon: njano?
chiba: athre ullu
chiba: pavi kinnante aalalle
pavithra_k_menon: aaru paranju?
americansundari:
chiba: angane thonni
chiba: pakshe chundeli njangalude koode eppolum unduu
pavithra_k_menon: angane thonnendaa.... he is like my brother
pavithra_k_menon: njanum untu
chiba: ok.
chiba:
americansundari: Atha nammuda amal kinnan se cheyan nadakkuva
americansundari:
pavithra_k_menon: pakshe ente brother thettu cheythaal njan athu thettanennu
thanne parayum..
chiba: ennaal avanodu parayu
pavithra_k_menon: njan paranjallo
chiba: avan enna paranju
pavithra_k_menon: amal kinna se cheyyaan nadakkunno? entha chechee?
pavithra_k_menon: avan paranjathu oru valya story aanu
pavithra_k_menon: serverinu ethire creditcard company case file cheythu,
USD2000 adakkanam, no band width... etc
pavithra_k_menon: ennokke paranju
pavithra_k_menon: avanu mavelinadu valya interest illa ennum paranju
americansundari: avan ishtam ullathu cheyattu
americansundari:
chiba: oooh
pavithra_k_menon: MMP3 ini kooduthal active aakkaan pokunnu ennu paranju
chiba: mod aayille
pavithra_k_menon: mmp3yil no mods... but films all for paid members
chiba: ohoo
americansundari: sho mavelikku vendi kurtachu dollar kodukkmennu vechtha
americansundari:
chiba: avan idattee
pavithra_k_menon: sundari chechi--- madamma.. nalla cash teamaa...
chiba: oru member polum thirinju nokkaalle daivame
americansundari: ellam poyi illa mola
pavithra_k_menon: evite thirinju nokkallenna?
americansundari:
jamal ikka: sorry guys
pavithra_k_menon: madamme... kurachu cash thannu sahayikkamo?
chiba: avante paratta site lu
jamal ikka: oru kariyum
hari: ya
chiba: parayedaa
pavithra_k_menon: parayu ikka
jamal ikka: sorry
americansundari: tharamallo
americansundari: aa kinnau kodukku
jamal ikka: i cant control myself
americansundari: ads arthi thirattu
americansundari:
jamal ikka: onnu vilichotae
americansundari: villi
americansundari:
hari: vilikkeda aliya
pavithra_k_menon: ayyo
chiba: vilikkuuu
pavithra_k_menon: entha ikkaa
americansundari: villi
hari: vile
americansundari: para ikka
pavithra_k_menon: parayu ikka
hari: we all are witing
hari: waiting
jamal ikka: panna pulayadimonae poori thayoli avantae ammayae otu
americansundari: yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
chiba: heheheheheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
jamal ikka: atu aa kinnan thayoliku
hari: kalakki aliya
hari: kalakky
jamal ikka: ammayae panni thayoli
hari: very good
jamal ikka: nayintae mon
chiba: mathiyeddaaaaaa
americansundari: russel nikku pavi allam copy cheyattu
jamal ikka: avanodu poyi para
americansundari: annala kinnanu kodukkan patti
chiba: hehehehe
americansundari:
americansundari: pattu
jamal ikka: avantae pariyudae site
jamal ikka: kondu undakda
jamal ikka: nayae
americansundari: that's enough
americansundari:
jamal ikka: illa
pavithra_k_menon: ayyo mathy ikkaa...
pavithra_k_menon: njan copy cheyyunnillaa
jamal ikka: pavi avanodu paranjaeru
chiba: mathiyedaaaaaaa
hari: nee niruthanda
jamal ikka: illada
pavithra_k_menon: ithokke vrithikedalle?
hari: parayan ullathellam para
jamal ikka: alla nalla rasama
hari: ithokke appole appole kodekkendatha
jamal ikka: avan undalo
chiba: control tharooooo WHISKY daivangalee
jamal ikka: pulayadimon
hari: ha ha ha
americansundari:
pavithra_k_menon: ikkaaa... mathy ikkaaa
americansundari:
jamal ikka: avanae kal taraanu njaan
jamal ikka: avantae koopilae site
chiba: enikku control tharoooo whisky daivangaleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
jamal ikka: kurae undakiyalo
pavithra_k_menon: madamma chechikku vallathum manasiilaayo? enikku some
words manassilaayi
chiba: explain cheyyaano paviiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
americansundari: edda pottada avan adsinu vendi alla
chiba:
hari: manasilayillenkil njna paranju tharam
jamal ikka: sundari okkae aa pulayadi mon valakan nokiyata
pavithra_k_menon: ente daivame... njan entha ee kelkkunnathu
americansundari: atha enikku oru chance thaa
jamal ikka: avan site tudangi pennugalae valakan nokiyata
jamal ikka: ata avantae main hobby
pavithra_k_menon: avan paranjittondu
americansundari: i want to kick that mother fucker asss
jamal ikka:
americansundari:
hari: kalakki sundari
jamal ikka: together baby
hari: angane 4 english varatte
americansundari: asshole
jamal ikka: sucker
hari: chilarkku mansilakana
americansundari: tell him go and suck ****
chiba: sundariye valakkaan avan nokkiyoo?_???
jamal ikka: avantae koopilae site
americansundari: never
jamal ikka: kondu undakada
chiba: enikku sahickillaaa... sundari ye njan valachathaa
americansundari:
jamal ikka: avan illae
chiba:
hari: sitele penunagl avanteyo
jamal ikka: ividae
pavithra_k_menon: enikku ithokke kettu mathiaayi
hari: koooooooooooooooooo
chiba: niruthedaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
americansundari: bhakki kinnattu kodukkam
americansundari: me on good moood
hari: sundari 4 english varatte
jamal ikka: kinnan alla avan
americansundari: invite that mother fucker
pavithra_k_menon: ayyo chechi theri parayalle
chiba: backy avan varumpol kodukkaaam
jamal ikka: patti thayolianu avan
jamal ikka: avan onnum nannakila
chiba: niruthedaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
americansundari: this is fr that bitch
chiba: mathyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
pavithra_k_menon: enikku ingane parayaan onnum  ariyilla... allel njan
paranjene
jamal ikka: entu mati ennu
hari: pavakke nee are paraum
hari: nammaleyo

hari:
americansundari: heh
hari: oh oh oh
americansundari: paryum parayum
americansundari:
hari: are va ustanda va kya dialogu
pavithra_k_menon: ente mavelinadu avan poottiyille aa idiot... mathyo?
chiba: kinnan kaanichathu thenditharam aayi
jamal ikka: avan ariyatu njaan loka tara anu ennu
bobinjoseph1986 has joined the conference.

jamal ikka: kinnan pari
bobinjoseph1986: hi
americansundari: edda ee cherukkan enthina villlicha
americansundari:
americansundari: that bitch
chiba: potedi chundeliii
bobinjoseph1986: ikka njan going aa
hari: koppu avan enna vigarichu nammal ellam avante veetile jolikkarenno
pavithra_k_menon: avan vrithikettavan... monkey...
jamal ikka: avanae sadanam njaan vaetum
bobinjoseph1986 has left the conference.

americansundari: he is a gay
americansundari:
chiba: hahahaha
jamal ikka: avan gay alla
jamal ikka: atilum pokka
chiba: athennadi ninne valakkan nokkanja kondaano
americansundari:
americansundari: edda sake benda
chiba: ninne valachaal avane njan thattum
americansundari: \]
pavithra_k_menon: ayye,... entha ee parayunne?
jamal ikka: avan onnum real tarayae kanditilla
hari: kettittu manasilayilla
americansundari: appol allam thirnallo
americansundari: njhan kura nall kuddiya ithryum villikana
pavithra_k_menon: kinnanu ithu mail aayi ayakku...
americansundari: nalla palli poyi pray cheyanum
americansundari:
chiba: mathiyallooo enthinaa adikam
americansundari:
jamal ikka: avan enta onlinil illae
chiba: palli pokandedi nee ennodu paranjooo
pavithra_k_menon: ho... njanum cheetha vilikkaan padichu
jamal ikka: undae vili
pavithra_k_menon: ariyilla ikkaa... avan onlineil undo ennu
hari: vilikku appol direct ayi samsarikkamallo
hari: illenikil indirect alle
chiba: avan online illaaa
jamal ikka: umm
chiba: chilappol invisible ayirikkum
hari: copy paste cheyyan budhi mutta
pavithra_k_menon: njan copy cheyyaam
pavithra_k_menon: avanu sendaam...
chiba: ithellam copy cheythu word laakki ayakku
jamal ikka: njaan kurae offline ittu aa nayintae monu
hari: ok very good
chiba: russele nee form laanallooo
jamal ikka: avan irunu cash undakatae
chiba: innu ethra adichuuuu
pavithra_k_menon: ok chettanse... njan cheyyaam ... ellam nammude
mavelinadinuvendi... eeswaraa.. ennodu ksamikkane
jamal ikka: shae asianet vaenamayirunu
americansundari: heh
chiba: ninnodu njan kshamikkaam paviiiiii
americansundari: annal onam
americansundari:
pavithra_k_menon: asianet chettan ithu arinjal thakarnnu pokum... pavam
hari: kodungalore pooram thudangatta
jamal ikka: avan aa pavam asianet aa kinnanu kurae undaki kodutu
chiba: athe atheee
jamal ikka: avanae polum mind chaitilla
pavithra_k_menon: hari chettan bharani paattu paadukayano?
chiba: thanaro thannaro thana thanaaro thannaroooo
jamal ikka: sundari avalu kurae mp3 undaki kodutu
hari: pavi nee ithellam copy cheyyunnella
pavithra_k_menon: njan pinne copy cheyyaam
hari: copy cheyyane marakkaruth ketta
pavithra_k_menon: avanu sendaam
americansundari: Njhan happy ayi
americansundari:
americansundari:
chiba: nee eppolum happy alle
hari: hello all
pavithra_k_menon: paavam sundari chechi...
hari: sorry for this poora pattu
jamal ikka: avan rajayasaba enna paeril kurae cash undakiyalo aa naitintae
mon ccm serveril
hari: kurachukoode kelkkana
hari: ente standered alppam korava
chiba: njanum kaasu koduthathaaaaaaaaaaa
americansundari: avan rajyasha allakrkku access koduthilankil
jamal ikka: ariyam aliya
hari: ellarun sagikkumenkil nan thudangatta
americansundari: atha nannum illathavan
americansundari: idiot
chiba: hehehe
jamal ikka: maveli down ayapol aaa pavam binoy avanae kurae helpi
chiba: ellarum nadathu
chiba: enikku visakkunnuuuuuuuuuuu
chiba: ravile 4 peg vittathaa, athinte visappuuuuuu
americansundari: ccm down ayappol aa idiot thirinu nokkiyilla
jamal ikka: ccm downayapol avanu mind illa
pavithra_k_menon: vishakkunnenkil kurachu mannu vaari kazhikku chiba chetta
americansundari: edda avanta target vera ayirunnu
jamal ikka: entadi
americansundari: ccmil membersina piddikkan
chiba: hehehehe pavii
hari: ivide eethu arangeriyathu chila alkkarkku vendiya
jamal ikka: entu target
americansundari: ccmil membersina piddikan
americansundari:
jamal ikka: aha
americansundari: avnta motherinta kaliveedu
americansundari: kannichu kodukkam
americansundari:
hari: kooooooooooooooooooooii
jamal ikka: sundari umma
jamal ikka: nee anu sundari
americansundari: enthu source use cheythu athu hack cheyum
americansundari: allalel kando
chiba: sundari kku umma kodukaan nee aaraa hariii
hari: pavi ithum copy cheytho
americansundari: verumm kuntha
chiba: athinu ivide njan unduuuuu
jamal ikka: hehe
americansundari: enthinnu
hari: panna pulayadi mon avante oru _________ site
chiba: pw oppickuu
jamal ikka: fill in the blanks hari
hari: athu alppan thara anu aliya
americansundari: enthinna nattila Law enforcement okka illa
hari: penungal ille
jamal ikka: oh
americansundari: illegal mp3 idunathu
hari: avaru ok yanenkil njan fil cheyyam
jamal ikka: ccm is the besttttttt
americansundari:
jamal ikka:
americansundari: yes
americansundari:
jamal ikka:
americansundari: yes
americansundari: addipoli pottan
jamal ikka:
americansundari:
americansundari: i will sue those mother fuckers
americansundari:
jamal ikka: hehe
hari: ivide vannu oru miranum udakkoola
jamal ikka:
americansundari: athu njhan kodthollam
hari: fbi vigaruchittu nadkkunnilla
jamal ikka: mp3 sucksssssssssssssss
jamal ikka: mmp3 sucks
americansundari: Sreebitccccccccccccccccccccch
pavithra_k_menon: shyoo,... enthaa ee parayunnathu..
hari: kettille
hari: manasilayille
jamal ikka: nalae kaliveedil spamingggggggggg
americansundari: yeap
jamal ikka: forrreal
americansundari: innu baaa
pavithra_k_menon: kaliveedu kalichu thudangiyittilla
jamal ikka: vadi entae sundari
jamal ikka: nammuku spamam
hari: ha ha ha aliya
americansundari: nokay kutta
jamal ikka: avantae ammae veedu
hari: thacham giri ondakkum ennu
americansundari: http://www.kaliveedu.com/
hari: we will koppu soooon ennu
americansundari: \
pavithra_k_menon: oh.... enikku mathiyayi
hari: maveliyil ninnum ellam shiftukaya
jamal ikka: hardcore parental teri
americansundari: ]edda nammaku aa chullazzzzina kudda villichalo
americansundari:
jamal ikka: avan enganaeya
hari: arkku venam avante kooplie sitle mod
americansundari: njhangal new site irkkan pokkuva
jamal ikka: shae kalivvedu pootiya
hari: avan salary onnum tharunnillallo
americansundari: atha avan alla undakan

jamal ikka: ccm is the bestttttttttttttttt
hari: masam kazhiyan ullathu undakkunde ketto
americansundari: yeap
jamal ikka: ccm ki jaiiiiiiiiiiii
hari: koooooooooooooooiiiii
americansundari: oru mp33333bitchesinum ccmilna beat cheyan pattila
hari: njan ccm ki jay]
hari: athanu site
pavithra_k_menon: njan pottee.... ningal continue cheyyu...
americansundari: yes
hari: athil ulla admins anu admin
americansundari: yes
hari: ponnooooooooooooooo
jamal ikka: ccm ki jaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
americansundari:
jamal ikka: ccm is the besttttttttttttttttt
hari: entha adminssaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
hari: ccmil
jamal ikka: maveli kinnan suckssssssssssssss
hari: koooooooooooooooiiii
americansundari: Sreebitch
hari: mole pavi neee pona
americansundari:
hari: nillu

jamal ikka: kuch binoy ki jaiiiiiiiiiiii kinnan sucksssssssss
hari: ha ha ha ha ha
americansundari: nee ethu full copy cheythu aa mfina kanikku
americansundari:
jamal ikka:
hari: ha ha ha ha ha
hari:
jamal ikka: ccm ccm
jamal ikka: ccm
pavithra_k_menon: njan copy cheyyunnilla.... enikku vayya avante cheetha
vili kelkkaan
jamal ikka: ccm
americansundari: cccm
americansundari: yeap
jamal ikka: cccm ki jai
americansundari: here it's
americansundari:
jamal ikka: fucking maveli sucks
hari: enthadi mole copy cheyythe
chiba: ccm moordhabad
hari: ha ha ha ha
chiba: ccm bendaa bendaaa
americansundari: heh
jamal ikka: mairu kinnan
chiba: hello amal
americansundari: mother fucker
pavithra_k_menon: CCMine njan support cheyyilla... athukondaa
americansundari: nitch asshole
hari: amal poora pattanu
jamal ikka: kinnan avantae ammaedae
chiba: njanum support cheyyillaa paviiiiiiiiiiiiii
americansundari:
hari: kekkanamenkil nillakm
chiba: ccm enikkum ishtamallaaaas
americansundari: eppol kinnau ccminta suppeot vennum
hari: ok ok ok
americansundari: allankil van pokka
hari: ccm vidu
hari: ivide ippole mp3 fucker anu
americansundari: edda amala ninta kashu pochu
pavithra_k_menon: maveli illenkilum enne konnaalum njan ccmil kerillaa... aa
basket- kuch kuch enne athrakkum naanam keduthy
americansundari: kinnan mungi
americansundari:
chiba: njanum angane thanneyaa paviii
jamal ikka: ginnan
jamal ikka: avantae
jamal ikka: koopilae
chiba: kuch kinnane kalum tharayaaaaa
jamal ikka: aliya chibae
chiba: yes daa russel
americansundari: kuchinu oru born koduthala
hari: ok ok chiba,russel
pavithra_k_menon: avanu ammayum pengalum illathavanaa... aa raskal kuch
americansundari: bhakki randum okay
hari: ccm vidu
jamal ikka: kuch avan ccm valarti entokkae paranjalum
hari: athalla nammude topic
chiba: kuch valarthy
chiba: koppaa
jamal ikka: kinnan arsehole is our topic
hari: ya

but this was the era of more websites from kerala started to grow.

if you think you are pretty gal read this

A young and pretty lady posted this on a popular forum:

Title: What should I do to marry a rich guy?

I'm going to be honest of what I'm going to say here:
I'm 25 this year.
I'm very pretty, have style and good taste.
I wish to marry a guy with $500k annual salary or above.
You might say that I'm greedy, but an annual salary of $1M is considered only as middle class in New York.
My requirement is not high:
Is there anyone in this forum who has an income of $500k annual salary?
Are you all married?
I wanted to ask: what should I do to marry rich persons like you?
Among those I've dated, the richest is $250k annual income, and it seems that this is my upper limit. If someone is going to move into high cost residential area on the west of New York City Garden, $250k annual income is not enough.
I'm here humbly to ask a few questions:

1) Where do most rich bachelors hang out?
(Please list down the names and addresses of bars, restaurant, gym)
2) Which age group should I target?
3) Why most wives of the riches is only average-looking?
I've met a few girls who doesn't have looks and are not interesting, but they are able to marry rich guys.
4) How do you decide who can be your wife, and who can only be your girlfriend? (my target now is to get married)

Ms. Pretty

Awesome reply:

Dear Ms. Pretty,

I have read your post with great interest.
Guess there are lots of girls out there who have similar questions like yours.
Please allow me to analyse your situation as a professional investor.
My annual income is more than $500k, which meets your requirement, so I hope everyone believes that I'm not wasting time here.
From the standpoint of a business person, it is a bad decision to marry you.
The answer is very simple, so let me explain.

Put the details aside, what you're trying to do is an exchange of "beauty" and "money":
Person A provides beauty, and Person B pays for it, fair and square.
However, there's a deadly problem here, your beauty will fade, but my money will not be gone without any good reason.
The fact is, my income might increase from year to year, but you can't be prettier year after year.
Hence from the viewpoint of economics, I am an appreciation asset, and you are a depreciation asset.
It's not just normal depreciation, but exponential depreciation.
If that is your only asset, your value will be much worried 10 years later.

By the terms we use in Wall Street, every trading has a position, dating with you is also a "trading position".
If the trade value dropped we will sell it and it is not a good idea to keep it for long term - same goes with the marriage that you wanted.
It might be cruel to say this, but in order to make a wiser decision any assets with great depreciation value will be sold or "leased".
Anyone with over $500k annual income is not a fool; we would only date you, but will not marry you.
I would advice that you forget looking for any clues to marry a rich guy.
And by the way, you could make yourself to become a rich person with $500k annual income. This has better chance than finding a rich fool.
Hope this reply helps. If you are interested in "leasing" services, do contact me...

Bank CEO

afternath of ugly truth

most people i know especially gals look for a loyal humble and sweet guy my question here to you is are you ready to sacrifice anything for what you looking for ? the answer will always be a NO you expect everything to come to you without giving up anything u have in ur life now and everything you want to remain the same...this is a truth i have realized from most pple i know...to all those unsatisfied souls the only advise i can give you is without sacrificing anything you wont gain anything that you want for a life long.

- accept your mistakes
- take initiative
- do what you think is right
- treasure the ones who care for you
- be emotional but not a pain
- watch your mouth(words are more destructive than a nuclear bomb)
- be a good neighbor
- keep in mind, expectations can never be met always
- celebrate everyday

how i wish i could put in practice the above...

Farmville

I recently started playing farmville on facebook a game that i really wanted to do in real which i always have had passion in real time gardening and planting... well this has really helped me since past couple of weeks to move the life further and really did help to burn ma off time during the longer weekend and also off office hours fantastic stuff :) i also realised that the friends/contacts i have so far are helping a lot in this game as the more pple on it the more coins u can earn haha so one good advantage of having those so called acquaintances in your contact list will help in someway some day like mine :)

wat a fortune.

Tomorrow's life is too late. Live today - its easy to make fortune quotes but to be practical i guess its pretty late by the time u realize the meaning of it. I been trying to be a positive thinker and take things positively recently thinking only of the good side but that really makes u feel like u r putting a mask on. So im confused now how can i polish things and bring myself on a way that makes me comfortable in all grounds. Btw happy onam to all malayalees.

FML

Not sure how many times you have given chance to pple again and again to screw ur life..i recently realised the reason why its always me is because i have a lot of patience and i don't react to anything so that let others to take over the space and create the irritation which indirectly make u angry and create hatred over certain stuff. This really isn't good, like someone advised me before "when someone give u a pain give double back so that they will know how it feels and will stop doing it", actually i think this is true you have to be an asshole at times to certain people to make them realize how bad u can be...not sure how it feels for you when :-

- someone else take away ur stuff and dont return
- your parents support other kids and compare yourself with a friends of yours
- your friend is jealous of your success and hate you just because he/she cant be like u and stop contacting you
- you cook for a group of your friends and u realize there isn't anything left for you to eat
- a close relative of yours whom you thought will be there for you turns out to be a pussy
- you keep waiting for someone's msg or call and you get sorry I was busy or a qn back why cant u msg/call ?
- you have a roomie who is stinky who don't even bother taking shower use your pillow, keep shaking the bed when you are sleeping and yawns like a hippo
- suddenly people change their priority table in their life and u goes down in the list

im not sure whatelse to write here...im just having a bad start today with a wonderful shouting from ma mouth early morning and im fucking irritated with an asshole..

Life is so fuckedup!

Shout Shout!

Letting out some anger!

How i wish i wakeup from my bed and slaughter you to death by stamping on your head with my leg and split your face, fucking stinking shitty mouth with my 2 hands into 2 pieces and burn all your unwanted pieces of smashed flesh and make sure every piece of it get burned without leaving any blood strains on this earth. Argh im still not satisfied arghhhh muthafucking bastard son of a gun chow cheebaye after one head ache is over another one comes to spoil my sleep why the fuck is it always me...i cant fucking take this anymore..

fcuk you.

i didnt know this will come back to me

Last time when i at ma home town i wrote this piece of phrase or line to a very close friend of mine at the age of 14, after 11 years now it really hit me back i been complaining complaning about the issues in life and what i wrote to my friend is something that i wanted to hear at this moment. LOL.

There goes away my Appu

One after the other now i loose everything related with my childhood. I cant believe from today everything just going to be a memory. No more hopes in getting anything back even if i do it wont be complete without my appu & ammu. Even though i used to hate my appu i always used to have him placed in some corner of my heart, the reason is that he is the one behind all my talents, my first teacher who made me realise what i have in me. I still have your words in ma ears, Next time when you come i may not be anymore. Im happy atleast i could meet and talk with you couple of countable days back.

Mumbai attack video

Viva La Vida

I used to rule the world

Seas would rise when I gave the word

Now in the morning, I sweep alone

Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice

Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes

Listen as the crowd would sing:

"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"


One minute I held the key

Next the walls were closed on me

And I discovered that my castles stand

Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand


[Chorus: ]

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing

Roman Cavalry choirs are singing

Be my mirror, my sword and shield

My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain

Once you go there was never, never an honest word

That was when I ruled the world


It was the wicked and wild wind

Blew down the doors to let me in

Shattered windows and the sound of drums

People couldn't believe what I'd become


Revolutionaries wait

For my head on a silver plate

Just a puppet on a lonely string

Oh who would ever want to be king?


[Chorus: ]

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing

Roman Cavalry choirs are singing

Be my mirror, my sword and shield

My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain

I know Saint Peter won't call my name

Never an honest word

That was when I ruled the world

Ooooo, ooooo, ooooo, oooooo, ooooo

[Chorus: above version]

Ooooo, ooooo, ooooo


written by GUY BERRYMAN, CHRISTOPHER A. MARTIN, JON BUCKLAND, WILL CHAMPION

Recall

Never make someone your everything, this would be a big mistake in life if the someone has someone else who is everything to him/her ;) Cause when they're gone, you'll have nothing. It's okay to lose your pride over someone you love, but don't lose someone you love over your pride.

ok the below i got in a fwded email im jus pasting it here :-

I hated going to weddings. All the grandmas would poke me saying "you're next!" they stopped doing that when I started doing it to them at funerals.

Life is all about moving on. But somewhere in between moving on and moving in, you have to learn how to say goodbye. And that by far is the hardest part of life.

i guess if you don't jump you'll never know if you can fly

Just because I have to let you go doesn't mean that I won't think about you every step I take away from you.

I hope you know that you are my close friend. Thanks for the best time of my life.

if you hold back feelings because you're afraid of getting hurt, you end up hurting, anyway.

i never asked for it to be over. Then again, I never asked for it to begin. That's the way it is with life, some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance. But even the most beautiful days have their sunsets.

Maybe that's why we hold on as hard as we do, we just can't believe such a miracle can happen to us twice...but it can, someday you'll find it again. -Someone Like You

Regards
AjayKerala

Courtesy : xanga.com

sicko

ma mind is sick today...all i know is im getting spoiled!!! screw everything:@:@:@

who the F r u ?

do this everyday go to the mirror and value urself! ask this who the fuck r u ? whats ur value ? what r u ? preferebly do this in the morning after taking shower...really helps to stay where you are and you will only think upto what you are and wont think so HIGH of yrself!!!!! which is not good for anyone..

Relationship

Each relationship between two persons is absolutely unique. That is why you cannot love two people the same. It simply is not possible. You love each person differently because of who they are and the uniqueness that they draw out of you.

If you don't go after what you want; you'll never get it.
If you don't ask; the answer is always no.
If you don't step forward; you'll always be in the same place.

Every man needs a women when his life is a mess,
because the queen protects the king, just like in a game of chess.

Sometimes i feel you'd rather watch me drown ;
than get your hands wet.

But sometimes, we just have to be happy with what people can offer us. Even if it’s not what we want, at least it’s something, you know?
And then..if thats not good enough - then maybe fate's trying to tell you something.

You deserve to be with somebody who makes you happy.
Somebody who doesn't complicate your life.
Somebody who won't hurt you.

If you follow the crowd, you might get lost in it.

What Can You Do in One Day?

I found this story amazing. Hope it gives you all something to ponder J

One day, when I was a freshman in high school,

I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.

His name was Kyle.

It looked like he was carrying all of his books.

I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday?

He must really be a nerd."

I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.

As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him.

They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt.

His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him

He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes

My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him and as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye.

As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks. "

They really should get lives.

" He looked at me and said, "Hey thanks!"

There was a big smile on his face.

It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.

I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived.

As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before.

He said he had gone to private school before now.

I would have never hung out with a private school kid before

We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books.

He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.

I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends

He said yes.

We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.

Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.

I stopped him and said, "Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!

" He just laughed and handed me half the books.

Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends

When we were seniors, we began to think about college.

Kyle decided on Georgetown , and I was going to Duke.

I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem.

He was going to be a doctor, and I was going for business on a football scholarship.

Kyle was valedictorian of our class.

I teased him all the time about being a nerd.

He had to prepare a speech for graduation.

I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak

Graduation day, I saw Kyle.

He looked great.

He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.

He filled out and actually looked good in glasses.

He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him.

Boy, sometimes I was jealous. !

Today was one of those days.

I could see that he was nervous about his speech.

So, I smacked him on the back and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be great!"

He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled.

" Thanks," he said.

As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began

"Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years.

Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends...

I am here to tell all of you that being a
friend to someone is the best gift you can give them.

I am going to tell you a story."

I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met.

He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.

He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home.

He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.

"Thankfully, I was saved.

My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable."

I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment.

I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.

Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.

Never underestimate the power of your actions.

With one small gesture you can change a person's life.

For better or for worse.

Destiny puts us all in each other's lives to impact one another in some way.

FW: true story....eerie... give me goose bumps

This is a real story of a young college girl who passed away last month.

Her name was Priya. She was hit by a truck.
She was working in a call center. She had a boy friend named Shankar.
Both of them were true lovers. They always talked on the phone.

You would never find her without handphone. In fact she also changed her cell connection from M-One to Starhub, so that both of them can be on the same network, and save on the cost. She used to spend half of the day talking with shankar. Priya's family knew about their relationship. . Shankar was very close to Priya's family as well. (Just imagine their love) .

Before she passed away she always told her friends 'If I pass away please burn me with my handphone' she also said the same thing to her parents. After her death, people cld'nt carry her body, A lot of them tried to do so,but still can't. Everybody had tried to carry the body, the results were the same.

Eventually, they called a person known to one of their neighbours, who can speak with the soul of dead person and who was a friend of her father. He took a stick and started speaking to himself slowly.. After a few minutes, he said 'this girl misses something here.' Then her friends told that person about her intentions to burn her with her phone.

He then opened the grave box and place her phone and sim card inside the casket. After that they tried to carry the body. It was then moved easily and they then carried her into the van.
All of us were shocked. Priya's parents did not inform Shankar that Priya had passed away..

After 2 weeks Shankar called Priya's mom.....

Shankar :.....'Aunty, I'm coming home today. Cook something nice for me.

Don't tell Priya that I'm coming home today, I wanna surprise her.'

Her mother replied..... 'You come home first, I wanna tell you something very important.'
After he came, they told him the truth about Priya. Shankar thinks that they were playing a fool. He was laughing and said 'don't try to fool me - tell Priya to come out, i have a gift for her. Please stop this nonsense'. Then they show him the original death certificate to him.

They gave him proof to make him believe. (Shankar started to sweat) He said... 'Its not true. We spoke yesterday.. She still calls me.

Shankar was shaking. Suddenly, Shankar's phone rang.. 'see this is from Priya, see this....' he showed the phone to priya's family. all of them told him to answer. he talked using the loudspeaker mode.
All of them heard his conversation.

Loud and clear, no cross lines, no humming. It is the actual voice of Priya & there is no way others could use her sim card since it is nailed inside the grave box

They were so shocked and asked for the same person's (who can speak with the soul of dead person) help again. He brought his master to solve this matter.

He & his master worked for 5 hours.

Then they discovered one thing which really shocked them....

Starhub has the best coverage
'Where ever you go, our network follows!!!'

LAME!

Keeping eyes Blind

I dunno how it is possible only in Singapore that they control the media unlike the other countries the news published here all comes thru a filter and only selected items gets published one good thing abt this is unlike other countries here pple dont get to read sad news on the front page, a recent incident was the capture of terrorist Mas Selamat Kastari who escaped earlier from the singapore jail was arrested at JB last friday, Malaysia(i really wonder didn he had no other place go ?) morning i was surprised when alex(my ceo) asked whether i know abt the arrest of masselamat i was like ermm is that guy still alive...

Full story : http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking%2BNews/Singapore/Story/STIStory_374034.html

Today Mandy's last day had a fantastic lunch at SushiME! with victor, sandhya, mandy, juliana, daphnie, sharon firstime i had a meal with them anyways so yea farewell to mandy pang working with her for past 2+ yrs someone i had at workplace to quarell and to splash my sarcasm and lmao jokes...i will miss you...good luck babes..

to be continued...

Whinney Wednesday

Never satisfied never happy and never ending expectations arghh! gosh this really screwed ma mind since early morning and a good piece of advise i received today from my godfather is that we are all man we should have strong balls don't be like female who worry alot. Anyways balls getting more stronger with increased loans and debts from(RBS, HSBC, BOC, ST, DBS, UOB, OCBC etc) but when comparing with other bigger problems like this (http://www.cleveland.com/medical/index.ssf/2009/05/face_transplant.html) i dont think i have a bigger issue in my life to worry about or to be sd about...so yea be happy with what you have and this piece of news article really made me laugh out loud (http://news.asiaone.com/News/AsiaOne+News/Malaysia/Story/A1Story20090505-139278.html) ROFL.

BusyMonday

I been working in IT since 9yrs now it has become a shared resource and now i have been working for multiple companies which is really is splitting me apart...anyways it was such a busy Monday i even forgot to check my mails whole day...had a fantastic time with ma victor bro and meow at Jaz bar listening to sleepy band music and mouthful foood...

nervous

i dunno from where i got the guts to go and head on priyadarsan :p i neve ask how r u ? i ask only how long r u guys going to be here and ok nice meeting u...see u again hahahaha..i had no idea wat to talk abt even though he is a not so close family friend of mine...

Finally

Finally it happend today my long time dream come true a bollywood movie shooting, meeting a bollywood star ? buahaha it happend today finally near my office early morning i stepped into De dana dan movie set where priyadarsan was standing in the center with his black shades and goregoeus katrina in a yellowish sun dress and action hero akshay in /greyish costume shooting a song scene..Akshay was lifting katrina and she was giggling i dunno if she is shy to act infront of the crowd :p

Never make someone a priority if they consider you an option.

That's probably the best advice I've ever heard. I mean, when you think about it, it's totally true. You spend all your time putting someone else first in your life. You wonder what they're thinking, are they happy, are they sad, what can you do to make them happy. And to them, you're nothing more than an afterthought. Someone to warm their bed once a week. A weekend girlfriend or boyfriend or something like that. They spend maybe one day with you on the weekend. And then when Monday comes, they ignore you like you don't exist. MAYBE they'll send you a text message or an email. MAYBE they'll answer the phone if you call. But, more often than not, they don't think about you. You get frustrated and sad and wonder what did you do that was so wrong. What can you do differently to get them to look at you the way you look at them. But the truth is, nothing. When it's gone, it's gone.

All you can do is stop making someone a priority when you are nothing more than their option. Life is too short to waste time, energy and make him/her your priority while you aren't a priority in their lives. We have to put energy ONLY on someone who do the same efforts like you to be with you. How many time have your wasted energy on someone and they aren't even aware how much you work hard to make things work and look at you at the end as if you're crazy or intense ?

Busy Sunny Day

Woke up at 1:30 pm and i had this surprise msg from someone after so long finally it happend at the city on a weekend and it became very memorable with a stupid idea to head marina when the sun was right on top =) anyways right after that another trip to clarke and a surprising dinenr at the thai rest watchin the beauties on sat nite at clarke...it was really nice spending a nite out with the left ones in sg..ready to take more surprises.

to be continued...

Amrithanandhamayi

After 3 long tries it get to hug the famous hugging mother at suntec today...i duno i didn really feel anything as pple say abt the magical feeling but i still remember wat she told me in my ears "ente mone, ente one, ammede ponnu mone"..

To the fate

Beyond pitch darkness, I may not look with my eyes but I do see through my heart. I am not different; I am just a bit apart. Never seen the sunshine nor moonlight, but I aspire to inspire, to feel light beyond pitch dark. I will, outperform beyond your fathomless capacity. I do not need your sympathy, just a bit of empathy, that would help to light my way.

;)

A gal for a guy should be a soulmate, there shoudnt be any secrets but you can keep little secrets like surprises and suspense's, should know each other well and often must shift the shoes..love is not oly about sex its about loving the way the other person is...the feeling that comes without any conditions and the magic that you will feel when the person is around u and what you start to miss when you dont have him/her near. I still have no idea why i type that there...anyways for some reason i feel like my life gonna flower soon and im gonna get back wat i have been missing and loosing al lthis while..yes im gonan take up control over my emotional overload of mind : - ) stand strong be brave and love yourself...

blah

muahaha someone just now ask me "ajay r u going to be alone" i was like hahahahaha i think pple finding it funny but seriously i have to make alternative plans what if that is really gonna happen how am i gonna payup the rental..how am i gonna manage ma fooding...ok theres a lot of things to plan on it then...thankgod i still have a job hope the funds will perform better in the coming months.. still lookin forward on the hospital financials i really really wish it happens today atleast that will give me a little peace in ma mind..

i read this somehwre today thought i post it so that i can read it again in future :)

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Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end. If you have love then you are wealthy indeed.

Im back here again

I been thinking of taking vacation but i dont want to go back home and i cant find anyone here who is interesting to go for a vacation with.. life is becoming more boring right after jitesh/snu left arghh.. i really wonder why pple exisit only for a short while in life..ok ajay this is how ur life is designed you have to adapt to it..yes yes im taking it that way no more expectations on anyone i get to know.. nothign is permanent i agree with it..chnages are part of life...okies staying alone in ma room has given me good air..everythign organised and all in place as i wanted..yes im happy now...but now i cant get sleep caus im not used to sleep alone since my childhood ok im adapting to that also caus after couple of months this is gonna be permanent..now a days im concentrating on my body shaping i wanna get rid of my tummy.....i wish i really have a time machine that works..

Dec - Jan 2009 : Jitesh, snusha, aravind, shiva, nithi
Mar 2009 : Vinu, shalini

Apr 2009 : renjith

The International Council of Manhood, Ltd.

The International Rules of Manhood

1. Under no circumstances may two men share an umbrella.
2. It is OK for a man to cry ONLY under the following circumstances:
(a) When a heroic dog dies to save its master.
(b) The moment Angelina Jolie starts unbuttoning her blouse.
(c) After wrecking your boss' car.
(d) One hour, 12 minutes, 37 seconds into "The Crying Game".
(e) When she is using her teeth.
3. Any Man who brings a camera to a bachelor party may be legally killed and eaten by his buddies.
4. Unless he murdered someone in your family, you must bail a friend out of jail within 12 hours.
5. If you've known a guy for more than 24 hours, his sister is off limits forever unless you actually marry her.
6. Moaning about the brand of free beer in a buddy's fridge is forbidden. However complain at will if the temperature is unsuitable.
7. No man shall ever be required to buy a birthday present for another man. In fact, even remembering your buddy's birthday is strictly optional. At that point, you must celebrate at a strip bar of the birthday boy's choice.
8. On a road trip, the strongest bladder determines pit stops, not the weakest.
9. When stumbling upon other guys watching a sporting event, you may ask the score of the game in progress, but you may never ask who's playing.
10. You may flatulate in front of a woman only after you have brought her to climax. If you trap her head under the covers for the purpose of flatulent entertainment, she's officially your girlfriend.
11. It is permissible to drink a fruity alcohol drink only when you're sunning on a tropical beach... and it's delivered by a topless model and only when it's free.
12. Only in situations of moral and/or physical peril are you allowed to kick another guy in the nuts.
13. Unless you're in prison, never fight naked.
14. Friends don't let friends wear Speedos. Ever. Issue closed.
15. If a man's fly is down, that's his problem, you didn't see anything.
16. Women who claim they "love to watch sports" must be treated as spies until they demonstrate knowledge of the game and the ability to drink as much as the other sports watchers.
17. A man in the company of a hot, suggestively dressed woman must remain sober enough to fight.
18. Never hesitate to reach for the last beer or the last slice of pizza, but not both, that's just greedy.
19. If you compliment a guy on his six-pack, you'd better be talking about his choice of beer.
20. Never join your girlfriend or wife in discussing a friend of yours, except if she's withholding sex pending your response.
21. Phrases that may NOT be uttered to another man while lifting weights:
(a) Yeah, Baby, Push it!
(b) C'mon, give me one more! Harder!
(c) Another set and we can hit the showers!

22. Never talk to a man in a bathroom unless you are on equal footing: i.e., both urinating, both waiting in line, etc. For all other situations, an almost imperceptible nod is all the conversation you need.
23. Never allow a telephone conversation with a woman to go on longer than you are able to have sex with her. Keep a stopwatch by the phone. Hang up if necessary.
24. The morning after you and a girl who was formerly "just a friend" have carnal, drunken monkey sex, the fact that you're feeling weird and guilty is no reason for you not to nail each other again before the discussion about what a big mistake it was occurs.
25. It is acceptable for you to drive her car. It is not acceptable for her to drive yours.
26. Thou shalt not buy a car in the colors of brown, pink, lime green, orange or sky blue.
27. The girl who replies to the question "What do you want for Christmas?" with "If you loved me, you'd know what I want!" gets an Xbox. End of story.
28. There is no reason for guys to watch Ice Skating or Men's Gymnastics. Ever.
We've all heard about people having guts or balls. But do you really know the difference between them? In an effort to keep you informed, the definition of each is listed below.


"GUTS" is arriving home late after a night out with the guys, being assaulted by your wife with a broom, and having the guts to say, "are you still cleaning or are you flying somewhere?"


"BALLS" is coming home late after a night out with the guys smelling of perfume and beer, lipstick on your collar, slapping your wife on the ass and having the balls to say, "You're next!"


We hope this clears up any confusion.


The International Council of Manhood, Ltd.

LIFE is running behind schedule

omg omg id life crisis im 25 this yearrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ok im finding it hard to accept the truth that im getting aged and life is moving very fast......how frustrating it is when most of yr friends are married and u r left with 3 bachelors boys who dont even know what they want in life ? ah comeon it sounds silly when i say i dun go out with anyone these days caus i find my options to be so unclickable and i dun find anything interesting at all, ok i dont want to waste money and time watching some stupid 3hr movie in the theater.. neither i wan go to the same pub drink the same thing and dance for the same tune over again and again.. i know i have to spend time with my friends but do something that we all haven done before.. im really finding it so boring these days nothing new in life same old sicky days hoping for the sun rise...

to be continued...

Sick

Yes im sick, mentally sick i dunno whats goin thru my mind these days..to be frank im really fed up i dun find a purpose in living this way..loneliness is really haunting me and im sick of talking with pillows which is not responding back...what i need is a bit mercy a piece of love a glance of care and a pinch of concern..my mind is full of destructive thoughts i wont be surprised if i crack earth into 2 pieces, im not jealous i dun hate anything still why the fuck i dun have some fucking peace in my mind..why am i so restless...i thought it was al the printed notes makin life miserable but not mine i have it enuff with me and im making a lot too....gawd i dunno wat i did wrong i dun even rememeber hurting anyone ? i hardly talk with pple now a days.. i have no clue.. to the almight pls dun make me hate life and do something stupid..give me the strength...

All By Myself

When I was young
I never needed anyone
And making love was just for fun
Those days are gone
Livin' alone
I think of all the friends I've known
When I dial the telephone
Nobody's home

All by myself
Don't wanna be
All by myself
Anymore

Hard to be sure
Sometimes I feel so insecure
And loves so distant and obscure
Remains the cure

All by myself
Don't wanna be
All by myself
Anymore
All by myself
Don't wanna live
All by myself
Anymore

When I was young
I never needed anyone
Making love was just for fun
Those days are gone

All by myself
Don't wanna be
All by myself
Anymore
All by myself
Don't wanna live
Oh
Don't wanna live
By myself, by myself
Anymore
By myself
Anymore
Oh
All by myself
Don't wanna live
I never, never, never
Needed anyone

All By Myself~ Celine Dionby Eric Carmen/Sergei Rachmaninoff

sicky friday

awwwe im sittin sick on ma sofa watchin tv in mute and listening to the next door lady scolding her little child... i want to sleep forever but i realised my shoulder is strong since it has a lot of load on it and atleast let my life be a benifit to another 10 pple..let it be...tommorows are becoming days of no hope, i dunno wat happiness exactly is ? is it a short period relaxing feeling ? i dunno if it is suppose to be a short time or long time feeling but wateve it is i only know about short time..anyways im still in search of my life purpose i dont want to endup like the normal man life i want to be part of the history else i want to giveup myself now right now..i badly need a psycharist i want to cure my mind...im sick sick sick!

Break down period

2009 is not much happening...and i dunno if my life will be anymore happening after tommo..gosh im gonna miss my partner my friend my brother my good supportive and a wing of my shoulder. i hope i will have the strength to withstand this tommorow...life is so damn unfair when u are being fair to urself...to my sweety lovable sister thanks for the wonderful birthday card of ur size :) haha it is really lovely i know u not gonan read this but wat to do helpless brother can only type this here no means to contact you sweetie anyways infuture if you happen to read this post u should know this i love you..love u a lot my sweetie little cute potato..i miss you a lot...i keep having ammu's memories always and i dunno how im mentally balancing..yest i moulded in the bus on the way to office thinking of her i really miss the time i had with her thankgod im not in kerala now else i would have been turned to a mad dog by now..now i know things happening are for good and it has reasons of its own...i dunno why i feel im being emotional which im not im very active but my thoughts and mind are lost somewhere else and my actions doesnt relate to any so weird..