afternath of ugly truth

most people i know especially gals look for a loyal humble and sweet guy my question here to you is are you ready to sacrifice anything for what you looking for ? the answer will always be a NO you expect everything to come to you without giving up anything u have in ur life now and everything you want to remain the same...this is a truth i have realized from most pple i know...to all those unsatisfied souls the only advise i can give you is without sacrificing anything you wont gain anything that you want for a life long.

- accept your mistakes
- take initiative
- do what you think is right
- treasure the ones who care for you
- be emotional but not a pain
- watch your mouth(words are more destructive than a nuclear bomb)
- be a good neighbor
- keep in mind, expectations can never be met always
- celebrate everyday

how i wish i could put in practice the above...

Farmville

I recently started playing farmville on facebook a game that i really wanted to do in real which i always have had passion in real time gardening and planting... well this has really helped me since past couple of weeks to move the life further and really did help to burn ma off time during the longer weekend and also off office hours fantastic stuff :) i also realised that the friends/contacts i have so far are helping a lot in this game as the more pple on it the more coins u can earn haha so one good advantage of having those so called acquaintances in your contact list will help in someway some day like mine :)

wat a fortune.

Tomorrow's life is too late. Live today - its easy to make fortune quotes but to be practical i guess its pretty late by the time u realize the meaning of it. I been trying to be a positive thinker and take things positively recently thinking only of the good side but that really makes u feel like u r putting a mask on. So im confused now how can i polish things and bring myself on a way that makes me comfortable in all grounds. Btw happy onam to all malayalees.

FML

Not sure how many times you have given chance to pple again and again to screw ur life..i recently realised the reason why its always me is because i have a lot of patience and i don't react to anything so that let others to take over the space and create the irritation which indirectly make u angry and create hatred over certain stuff. This really isn't good, like someone advised me before "when someone give u a pain give double back so that they will know how it feels and will stop doing it", actually i think this is true you have to be an asshole at times to certain people to make them realize how bad u can be...not sure how it feels for you when :-

- someone else take away ur stuff and dont return
- your parents support other kids and compare yourself with a friends of yours
- your friend is jealous of your success and hate you just because he/she cant be like u and stop contacting you
- you cook for a group of your friends and u realize there isn't anything left for you to eat
- a close relative of yours whom you thought will be there for you turns out to be a pussy
- you keep waiting for someone's msg or call and you get sorry I was busy or a qn back why cant u msg/call ?
- you have a roomie who is stinky who don't even bother taking shower use your pillow, keep shaking the bed when you are sleeping and yawns like a hippo
- suddenly people change their priority table in their life and u goes down in the list

im not sure whatelse to write here...im just having a bad start today with a wonderful shouting from ma mouth early morning and im fucking irritated with an asshole..

Life is so fuckedup!

Shout Shout!

Letting out some anger!

How i wish i wakeup from my bed and slaughter you to death by stamping on your head with my leg and split your face, fucking stinking shitty mouth with my 2 hands into 2 pieces and burn all your unwanted pieces of smashed flesh and make sure every piece of it get burned without leaving any blood strains on this earth. Argh im still not satisfied arghhhh muthafucking bastard son of a gun chow cheebaye after one head ache is over another one comes to spoil my sleep why the fuck is it always me...i cant fucking take this anymore..

fcuk you.

i didnt know this will come back to me

Last time when i at ma home town i wrote this piece of phrase or line to a very close friend of mine at the age of 14, after 11 years now it really hit me back i been complaining complaning about the issues in life and what i wrote to my friend is something that i wanted to hear at this moment. LOL.

There goes away my Appu

One after the other now i loose everything related with my childhood. I cant believe from today everything just going to be a memory. No more hopes in getting anything back even if i do it wont be complete without my appu & ammu. Even though i used to hate my appu i always used to have him placed in some corner of my heart, the reason is that he is the one behind all my talents, my first teacher who made me realise what i have in me. I still have your words in ma ears, Next time when you come i may not be anymore. Im happy atleast i could meet and talk with you couple of countable days back.